Mindfulness

I had a rather deep conversation with my colleagues and friends today about speaking your truth and the things we do to protect ourselves. Most of the time the things we do to avoid tough conversations ends up being the most toxic action we could take. If we just don't want to talk about something and we shut people out we can damage relationships without realizing. If we want to distract ourselves with food and television instead of truly seeking the real traumas we have then often times we can get into an unhealthy cycle that is hard to break. If we allow negativity to take up our head space then often times we deny ourselves positive things in fear that they might turn negative again. If we have something on our mind and it grows then usually the problem grows with it. Speaking your truth though is a vulnerable action. Opens ourselves to conflict, severed relationships, vulnerability, and the real reality that we might actually have to examine ourselves. Not externally blame

I was speaking with a friend the other day about various topics, but something was brought to my attention that I cannot seem to shake. So much of me has changed over the last couple of years that I think that I am not even aware of all of them. The obvious changes are that I use to go to sleep at two in the morning and sleep in until eleven if I had no obligations. Now I wake up between four forty-five and sleeping in is now six thirty in the morning. I am usually asleep around ten thirty or earlier sometimes. Changing from a night owl insomniac to an early bird is probably one of the most baffling changes. Thought it would be impossible. Then of course my weight and my health has changed quite a bit. Now being without exercise seems like a huge inconvenience rather than this thing I have to do that I despise. All good changes that I was aware of and most people around me were as well. Now for the one that I just discovered. I use to hate silence. As soon as I entered my room or m